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Chrystina has updated her blog about her best friend, Jen, that passed away. It’s a really beautiful entry, and she only updated the one she wrote on instead of creating a new one, so this may have gotten passed a lot of fans.
Since the passing of my beloved sister best friend Jenny, I have been learning to except that she is not with me anymore. It is very hard to do so though. The reason for this is because for the holidays I have come back to my home in San Diego and the road where jenny passed is the road u must drive on to get to our houses. It is very hard to ride past the place where it happened. Matter of fact, for the first few days of being home I avoided driving past. Then when I was women enough I started to go on that road and everytime I’d pull over and touch the tree n flowers where she passed. It seems when I do so, it makes me feel and remember all the crazy n amazing times we spent together.
Jus recalling when I got the phone call, i was in my tour bus at the time and i remember jus bein overwhelmed with tears and anger and dis belief that she was taken from me. I felt sick and knumb and I remember pounding on our kitchen and the floor and still just wheeping. It was sooo crazy to me because I wouldve expected that reaction to come out of me. I also remember laying in my bunk while my eyes slowly closed and one minute later opening my eyes and feeling jens presence. I remember my hand feeling the wall and feeling in my finger tips that she was feeling my hand too. I knew then that even though she was gone, no one could ever take away the yrs of joy we had with one another. Are souls are still definetly attached.
U see, jenny n I grew up together . We were only two when we met. It makes me smile even thinking about when we use to play n the sand boxes together n play sports together n have thousands of sleep overs n fights and talk about love and each others boyfriends n eat together and play mario carts forever and study together!! The craziest thing about us is that she n i were both the baby girls of our fams! We had our mom n dads then both of us had two older brothers then there was us! The spoiled lil baby brats !!!Which in actually we turned out to be not soo spoiled but smart and educated and goal driven! We really did everything together. She was my sister n I was hers. She really was the most kind hearted most caring person u’d ever meet. She wouldn’t even have to know u to cry with you or each lunch with u or laugh with u. I always always always admired her for being like that and being such a free spirit.
I dont kno y God took her at this time in her life or mine but I kno whatever the reason was … i will find out someday. I dont even know why it took me sooo long to write all of this… Maybe, I am ready to except. Its jus soo crazy writing this because for the last two yrs.. i had a feeling that someone deerly close to me was going to pass. I never knew or even had a clue who it would be and the last person was jenny. So crazy.
Even though I miss her sooo much i know she is in a waaayyyy better place and she is soooo happy. I just know it. She will always be a true visual. Any house I move in too there will be a pic of her! She will never die n my soul n heart nor mind. I will love her forever and she will always always be remembered.
Love u Jen
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